Thursday, October 1, 2009
Now What Am I Gonna Do?
I am just not happy tonight. I will get this out now, and will move on, but I just need to vent a bit.
I was so proud of myself when I started my walking program, and that I actually liked it! A point came when I noticed a difference, and that was really cool. Then...I started experiencing the foot pain and shin splints every time I walked. So, I modified my routine by walking a little, then stretching, walking, then stretching. It worked for me, and I was ok with it.
Because the pain really was starting to bother me, I went to the doctor, who sent me to a foot doctor. That happened today, and the news was not good. I actually have two problems: a bunion, and hallux minimus (which is the beginning of hallux rigidus).
This is a picture of what a bunion is:
Click the link for a short video that explains it:
For now, I will get a mega dose of steroids, and wear this pad he made for me (which by the way, makes me limp). I will return in 2 weeks to check it, and discuss treatment. We will try a pad in my shoe for now. Ultimately, I will have to have surgery. It will not get better, it will continue to get worse. And, it is possible that the other foot will do the same thing in time.
So once again, I have been shot down. Once again, this body betrays me. Yes, I know...God has a plan, God knows why...but tonight, I am just really upset that yet another thing is happening to my body, and standing in the way of me living a 'normal' life! With my history, another surgery is just not something I want to think about. I hate it, I hate it, I HATE IT!!!!
Ok, I think I am a bit better now. When you think of me, please say some prayers that whatever needs to be done will take place when it should--whenever that might be!